You Are Enviable

One of my favorite movies is one I can’t mention in good company.

Swingers, made in 1996 and starring Jon Favreau, Vince Vaughn and Ron Livingston, is not about married couples who sleep with other married couples.

Though the poster might make you think otherwise.

The title comes from swing dancing, which had a revival in popularity in the mid-1990s, and factors into the plot of the movie. The movie is about Mike, played by Jon Favreau, a struggling actor in LA whose girlfriend broke up with him six months prior. The abrupt ending of his relationship has made him feel worse about his life, hosting open mic nights no one comes to and watching his best friend Trent, played by Vince Vaughn, pick up women like that. The film focuses around Mike slowly regaining his confidence, helped along by his friends.

Which is part of the reason I like it so much. In a world where Tweets like this exist

it’s refreshing to watch a film where male friendship is at the center of it, and it’s never dismissed as a “bromance” or include jokes about the characters possibly being in the closet. But I also like it because it makes me think.

One thing in your face from the start is how jealous Mike is of Trent. And there’s lots to be jealous of. Mike’s understandably depressed about his ex-girlfriend breaking it off with him, and Trent’s unfailing cheerfulness is grating when Mike is dealing with such a loss. Trent’s so comfortable with himself that when Mike inadvertently sabotages a one-night stand, Trent shakes it off and moves on, showing confidence that Mike desperately wants to have. Also, Trent draws women like a magnet, which to the freshly single Mike feels like repeated steel-toed boots to the crotch.

And then in the climax, Rob, played by Ron Livingston, flips Mike’s perspective for the better by pointing out how much he has.

And made the video I watch whenever I get bummed about being unemployed.

No, Mike isn’t an A-lister swimming in women, but he has an agent and is part of actors’ unions, while Rob recently got rejected from a job as a theme park mascot. It’s this paradigm shift and reminder of what successes he does have under this belt that allows Mike to end his grieving stage and put himself back on the dating scene.

Haven’t we all been Mike at some point?

No one is immune to groveling, to thinking literally everyone has it better than you. I know I’ve definitely been envious, and my inner Mike is especially apparent because too often, that envy has revolved around relationship status.

But, much like Rob dropping in to completely flip Mike’s self-image on its head, something changed my perspective: reading.

All through 2021, every time I read a book, I’d post a short review on my Instagram story. It was a super fun experiment. Friends would ask me what I was reading or if I’d read a certain book, make recommendations or ask me for one, or (in one case) introduce me by saying, “He’s read every book ever written!”

I’ve known for a long time I’m a fast reader. I was tested back in middle school and learned I read about 600 words a minute. Seeing how that test was almost 10 years ago, I might have sped up or slowed down. But until I started getting positive feedback, I’d never considered my reading skills enviable.

And yet, it was and is.

So, that’s my message for today: you are enviable.

There is always going to be someone more successful than you, and you’ll only make yourself miserable to get what they have. But your life will get better when you realize the people you envy envy you right back. You are enviable. Say it out loud: I am enviable. And stop telling yourself there’s nothing interesting about you. Humans are myopic. We focus on negatives. A talent that’s obvious to everyone around you might never cross your mind.

You are enviable.

What I Believe

It’s amazing what you find while panic-writing a paper at 3 in the morning.

The year? Sophomore, almost over. The class? Eschatology, the study of the book of Revelation. The professor? Two things to know about him: 1. His cousin is one of the co-authors of the Left Behind series, which made for an interesting class because Reformed theology looks at the end times in the complete opposite manner of the Left Behind books. 2. He was one of those people whose mind moves at a gazillion miles per hour, making an already-tough class tougher. So there I was, frantically flicking from Word doc to Google to Spotify to Google and back. In my Googling, I found a page called “Theodicy: An Overview” from Dallas Baptist University.

And then everything changed.

Recently, I was reading back through some old assignments, and my Eschatology final paper was one of the papers I looked at. After cringing at my writing from 3 years ago, I took a second look and thought, “You know, I could make a blog post out of this.”

So, consider this my sort of mission statement. This is what I believe.

The Soul Making Model Theodicy

A theodicy is “the defense of God’s goodness and omnipotence in view of the existence of evil,” so says Merriam-Webster. It’s a key idea in Christian philosophy. Saint Augustine, one of the most important thinkers in Christianity, has that status in part because of the Augustinian theodicy. Alvin Plantinga, a philosopher in the Calvinist Reformed tradition, has also devoted his career to theodicies, writing the book God, Freedom, and Evil to put his own theodicy out in the public sphere. But the one that makes the most sense to me is the soul making model theodicy. To quote the overview:

Evil is a necessary condition for a world in which we overcome obstacles and struggles in order to develop. In fact, many higher-order goods (e.g. self-sacrifice, endurance, courage, compassion on the poor, etc.) are not possible unless we have to overcome evil.

Philip Irving mitchell, “Theodicy: An Overview”

Now this is not to say that I nor anyone who upholds this theodicy looks at injustices in the world, shrugs and says, “Deal with it. It builds character.” Rather, we believe that we are myopic. The most obvious statement: pain is uncomfortable. Humans don’t want to deal with things that are painful, and so when something painful happens, it’s easy to think that God has either abandoned us or is trying to punish us. It’s often only in hindsight that we can see how God was using our pain for the good.

Support for this is everywhere in the Bible. The story of Joseph, for instance. Joseph was sold into slavery by his own family, falsely accused of rape right as his life in servitude was looking up, and languished in prison despite a fellow prisoner promising to help him win back his freedom. But all of this put him in the position to save millions of lives when famine devastated Egypt, and reconcile with his brothers and reunite with his ailing father in the process. When Joseph revealed his identity to his brothers, he paraphrased perhaps the most famous verse from the Book of Romans, a verse you could say is the Soul Making Theodicy in a nutshell: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.”

But this isn’t enough. It’s easy for the soul making model theodicy to be misconstrued into a cop-out, an excuse Christians can use to shy away from life’s miseries with a dismissive “God works in mysterious ways.” No, the theodicy must go hand-in-hand with…

Eschatological Hope

An extension of this is that the Church should be a community that looks to that future justice by modeling it now: believers are to avoid fatalism and work toward God’s promised shalom, a future of perfect peace and justice that begins in God’s work on the cross. Resistance to evil and suffering can be a form of obedience to God.

“Theodicy: An overview,” emphasis mine

I hate Joel Osteen. I mean, I hate prosperity theology and any huckster hack preaching it, but I take Joel Osteen’s existence personally. He made headlines in 2017 for dragging his feet to open the doors of Lakewood Church to those victimized by Hurricane Harvey. Lakewood is one of the largest church facilities in the country, with a congregation 45,000 strong and the seating capacity for almost 17,000 people. Osteen tried to justify the church’s slow response time by saying the church was “inaccessible” due to flooding, only for several amateur photographers to dispute him by snapping pictures and videos of Lakewood’s facilities, barely affected by the hurricane. Lakewood’s representatives made a counter-argument by posting their own videos, showing Lakewood’s parking garages and other areas submerged in floodwater.

Who you believe in this situation isn’t important, nor is the fact that Osteen eventually opened Lakewood’s doors to those in need. What matters is the optics. Joel Osteen claims (keyword: claims) to be a Christian. He had a prime opportunity to care for the least of these and he squandered it.

In C.S. Lewis’ book The Great Divorce, the narrator finds himself on a bus to Hell. After reaching Heaven, the narrator’s guide, Scottish minister George MacDonald, asks the narrator to look at a crack in the soil. He tells the narrator that the entirety of Hell is no bigger than that crack compared to the glory of Heaven. This is the idea of eschatological hope: that in the grand scale of eternity and God’s love, human suffering is but a blip of inconvenience in the journey.

That’s only one half of it, though. I’ve witnessed people, especially during the worst of the pandemic, spin ideas of eschatological hope into a kind of spiritually based toxic positivity, minimizing people’s dismay and depression with sweet nothings: “Let go and let God.” “In Heaven, it will all make sense.” No, to truly abide by eschatological hope involves action. To be eschatologically hopeful, Christians must make priority fighting injustice and suffering in this lifetime rather than waiting for it to disappear in the next.

Óscar Romero was a prime example of eschatological hope. The Salvadoran archbishop refused to submit to the dictatorship of General Carlos Humberto Romero and advocated for the poor, who were caught in the civil war between General Romero’s forces and the guerrillas resisting his rule. Óscar was so dedicated to loving the poor that his final sermon, in which he was cut down by an assassin partway through, was a plea for the members of the congregation to not participate in the government’s routine violations of human rights.

Jesus commanded us to “take up your cross and follow me.” Crosses are a tool of torture and agonizing execution. If your theology emphasizes comfort and complacency, I recommend finding a new one.

“God Is Not Mad At You”

I listen to a podcast, formerly called “The Non-Partisan Evangelical,” now called “The Post-Evangelical Podcast.” While the host Paul Swearengin’s views have evolved, hence the podcast’s name change. But there’s a phrase he’s pushed that’s stuck with me: “God is not mad at you.”

I think God’s anger has been overemphasized. It’s the basis of so-called “fire and brimstone” preaching, sermons that say, “Be good or burn in hell.” The consequences of deemphasizing God’s loving nature are becoming apparent. One of the many reasons the exvangelical movement has gained steam is because the shaming nature of angry God theology traumatized a generation of church kids. When any step out of line, whether that be such a bad decision as getting drunk or something as trivial as holding hands or girls showing cleavage, puts you on the road to hell, can you blame these kids wanting nothing to do with their Heavenly Father when adulthood finally gives them the freedom to make church optional?

Now, this is not to say God can’t get angry. After all, God is a God of justice. But to say he’s only angry is a disservice. And it’s false. The story of Bible is the story of a sad God, not an angry one. This is a God who was in perfect unity with humanity, until they were led astray by the Great Deceiver. He so yearns for His children to be back on the same page with Him that He sent His own son to die so we could be reunited with Him.

God doesn’t hate you. He’s not a strict disciplinarian, waiting for you to screw up so He can drop a hurricane on your house as punishment. He’s not keeping a checklist, chuckling in anticipation of when He can see the look on your face as the trapdoor to Hell opens under your feet. He loves you, and He’s eager to see you come back to Him.

This is what I believe: that God allows suffering with a purpose, to make us better people and to cultivate care and love for our brothers and sisters in Christ. It is our duty as Christians to alleviate and stop the worst and/or unnecessary of suffering: war, rape, genocide, wealth inequity, slavery, etc. And God’s not doing this out of spite; He’s not mad at you and me.

He loves you.

…that’s it.

TIWTTA: 988

You know what? I’ve been going on and on about negative stuff. Let’s hear about some good news.

Today I want to talk about 988.

Hi, everyone, and welcome back to Today I Want to Talk About… (TIWTTA), a series where I take a topic and break it down into something digestible. And today I’m talking about some long-overdue news: the 988 emergency hotline.

What is 988?

988 is a new emergency number set to go live on July 16 of this year. Everyone knows 911 is the number you call for emergency situations and some people know there are local non-emergency numbers you can call for situations that don’t require police. 988 is a first: an emergency number exclusively dedicated to mental health emergencies.

How Will It Work?

988 is being backed by over 200 crisis centers across the United States. Once it is online, it will work virtually the same way as 911. When a person dials 988, they’ll be connected to a local crisis center. This endeavor is closely tied to the National Suicide Hotline, and a 988 caller will be connected to local counselors, the same way they would by dialing the suicide hotline.

In terms of funding, even though 988 is being rolled out now, it was approved in 2020 under the Trump administration. It’s funded by the Department of Health and Human Services with money allotted to the cause by the American Rescue Plan. The National Suicide Hotline Designation Act, the legislation that got 988 off the ground, gave state governments the green light to point telecommunication fees in the direction of 988 to bolster the money the national government is putting into it.

What’s the Big Deal?

On the world stage, the United States is tragically behind the curve in the conversation on mental health. In an article on 988, the National Alliance on Mental illness said that 1 in 4 people fatally shot by police between 2015 and 2020 were in the midst of a mental health crisis when the police were called to the scene. In addition, 44% of people in jail and 37% of people in prison have some kind of mental illness. And the very nature of prison not only means mental health resources are negligible to nonexistent, but that incarceration is guaranteed to worsen symptoms of mental illness.

Everyone has bad mental health at one point or another, and everyone has the right to good mental healthcare, in the same way everyone has the right to healthcare. 988 is a potential first step for a new, better conversation on mental health in America.

I started drafting this post before the news about Roe v. Wade‘s overturning, so I’m fully aware that the news about 988 feels like small potatoes compared to that news. So take heart, dear reader. Hope springs eternal. Until next time.

Hopeless

Instagram recently solved a nagging question for me.

When you go to the Instagram search bar, pictures from accounts you may want to follow pop up. One day a few weeks ago, I clicked on a picture. It was one of those block-quote memes. You know the type, where someone quotes someone famous or a tweet for whatever political cause is on their mind.

Something like this.

The meme, whatever it was, appealed to my own morals, so I clicked the profile. And I found myself in a cesspool. This person, whose bio said they’re a theologian with a focus on feminist theology, was chock-full of dreary garbage. A lot of junk about “the Establishment” this and “free thinker” that and “state-affiliated propaganda.” Think of the stereotypes of the smug conspiracy theorist calling people sheeple and telling them to wake up, and that’s this person’s page.

As I scrolled through this page, I had a thought: This person is hopeless.

Let’s talk about that.

There are a couple definitions of the word “hopeless.” There’s hopeless as in incurable, i.e. “It’s hopeless to put her through chemo. The tumor’s too advanced.” There’s hopeless as in unable to improve, i.e. “Ted Mosby is a hopeless romantic.” There’s hopeless as in a situation that seems unwinnable, i.e. “The score was 38-68 with 10 seconds left on the clock. It looked hopeless for the Hornets.” There’s hopeless as in unable to be done, i.e. “The house is too damaged. Trying to flip it is hopeless.” I’m not talking about any of those definitions.

I’m talking about hopeless as in without hope.

So, what is hope?

Like its antonym, hope has several definitions. There’s hope as in wanting something to happen or for something to be true: “I hope the coffee shop isn’t too busy.” There’s hope as in expecting with confidence: “Your mother’s doing good, I hope.” There’s hope as in something or someone with a high rate of success: “Get Baker on offense. He’s our only hope.” There’s hope as in desiring a goal: “I’m hoping 2023 is a good year.” I’m not referring to any of these definitions. All of these definitions are based on uncertainty. I can hope my favorite coffee shop is slow and then walk in to find it wall to wall. Someone hoping for my mother’s well-being won’t cast a hedge of protection around her. A team using their star player doesn’t guarantee a win. And as the last two years have proven, all the well-wishes for a new year in the world has no effect on the outcome of the year.

Can you spell “aged like milk”?

John Piper wrote a whole article on the type of hope I’m talking about. To quote from it directly:

…biblical hope is a confident expectation and desire for something good in the future. Biblical hope not only desires something good for the future — it expects it to happen. And it not only expects it to happen — it is confident that it will happen.

John Piper, “What is Hope?”

When I said that this person posting their memes about the Establishment and Obama being a war criminal was hopeless, that’s what I meant. Conspiracy theories–because let’s be real, that’s what this person is trafficking in–are inherently hopeless. Conspiracy theories give godlike power to human communities and institutions, be they the Jewish community, the rich, world governments, or the medical industry. Conspiracy theorists dress up their hopelessness with strands of truth, using the real instances of politicians’ lack of morality or the government rallying around the wealthy to convince people that X, Y and Z was a false flag operation or that George Soros is making the population dumber with chemtrails.

I feel like I’m getting off topic. Hopelessness.

There are a lot of hopeless Christians out there today, traditional and progressive. Under the traditional umbrella, you have the Christian doomsayers, the people who scream “Rapture!” at the drop of a hat. There’s also the sheer mess that is the religious right. January 6th is back on a lot of people’s minds with the congressional hearings starting this week, and I distinctly remember feeling deeply unsettled on January 6th as the news broke. The fact that anyone would attack the Capitol, let alone thousands of people, because they didn’t like the results of an election is scary enough, but it was what was in the crowd that disturbed me. Rioters carried crosses and Bibles, flew flags that said “Jesus 2020” and “Jesus is My Savior, Trump is My President” and some who broke into the Senate Chamber paused the vandalism to shoot God a thankful prayer.

Many an adjective has been hurled at the January 6 rioters: “violent,” “seditious,” “treasonous.” All of these adjectives make sense, but I’d throw one more adjective on the pile: “hopeless.” The people who stormed the Capitol had various reasons, but the supposed Jesus followers who picked up a gun or an axe handle did so because they had no Biblical hope. Even though they claim to believe in a holy book that says our Heavenly Father will rectify all wrongs and make a new heaven and a new earth, they may profess belief in this hope, but in their hearts they don’t believe it. They’ve been conditioned to believe that God can only work through certain people. (*cough*REPUBLICANS AND CONSERVATIVES!*cough*) And so when the enemy, those demon-possessed leftist Democrats, looks like they may have a shot at taking back the Oval Office, they’re not protesting, they’re firing the first shot of a holy war.

Hopelessness is also a problem in more progressive denominations, as Ms. Feminist Theologian Conspiracy Theorist above proved. (BTW, don’t hate on feminist theology because of this article. Feminist theology is a fascinating field, even if one person who studies it has a wack Instagram.) Although, I think progressive Christians can sometimes blunder into hopelessness rather than actively cultivating like the religious right does. Many progressive Christians are former fundamentalists, who fled the stuffy churches of their past and saw a more liberal denomination as a happy medium between the dead theologies they fled and atheism. But because there’s so many residual bad memories associated with religion, I think progressive Christians can focus too much on what they aren’t–the pack of judgmental hypocrites that Christians can prove themselves to be–rather than what they are: salt and light and God’s hands and feet until He returns.

And speaking of that, I need to make a disclaimer.

Up to this point, you may think my message is “Let go and let God.” NO. NO, IT IS NOT. Having encountered that line of thinking, I can say it’s nearly as noxious as those who say “God is a Republican” or Christian conspiracy theorists. I’m a firm believer that we as Christians are called to be people of action, to display radical love and make people see Jesus in us. I’m a part of the Assemblies of God, a Protestant denomination, so sainthood isn’t something I’m down with, but if sainthood was an aspect of Protestantism, I would want our saints to be Christians who took action. People like Martin Luther King, who paid for his divine calling to fight for black rights and labor laws with his life. People like Dietrich Bonhoeffer, a German theologian who refused to bend God’s Word to support the Third Reich and went to the gallows for being part of an assassination attempt against Adolf Hitler. People like Nelson Mandela, who sat in a jail cell for years for protesting South Africa’s apartheid laws and followed his Heavenly Father’s call to not only forgive his oppressors, but use his newly given power as President to lead South Africa into a nationwide reconciliation.

In fact, these people are prime examples of the power of Biblical hope. Many people think Martin Luther King knew, possibly through divine methods, possibly through being informed prior, that death was waiting for him in Memphis, Tennessee, based on certain things he said in his final speech, “I’ve Been to the Mountaintop.” If that is the case, the hope King had was so strong that he went to the metaphorical gallows with his head up, using his final hours to let others drink from his deep well of hope.

I’ve been going on and on about Biblical hope, so it feels appropriate to conclude by letting the Book itself have a say about hope:

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

John 16:33, NIV

TIWTTA: Great Replacement Theory

Today I want to talk about the Great Replacement Theory.

Welcome back, everyone, to Today I Want to Talk About…(TIWTTA), a series on this blog where I dissect a hot-button topic.

And today’s topic is hot.

On May 14, a pile of human garbage I won’t name here drove about 200 miles from Conklin, New York, to Buffalo, New York. He entered a Tops Friendly Market in the predominantly black Kingsley neighborhood wearing body armor and wielding an AR-15. He shot thirteen people, killing ten, before coming out of the store and surrendering to police. He also livestreamed the whole thing on Twitch, in case you thought there was anything sympathetic about this sewer dredge.

Police didn’t have to look far to find his motivation. All over his weapons, the bag of cat diarrhea in a bulletproof vest had written the names of other human cockroaches who had killed for racially motivated reasons, and excerpts from manifestos some of these wastes of space had written. He also etched various racist terms and white supremacist symbols on his gear. And speaking of manifestos, the police found a 180-page manifesto written in Google Docs. A search of the human hot dog water’s computer found posts on Discord and 4chan, as well as an online diary where he planned the attack, revealed incriminating information that tied the accounts to the shooter, and where the puke stain with a trigger finger ranted about today’s subject: The Great Replacement.

What is the Great Replacement Theory?

The Great Replacement is a white supremacist conspiracy theory. It alleges that immigrants from nonwhite countries are coming to Western countries with the goal of destroying the white race, either through interracial marriage or through an influx of black and brown people making white people the minority in Western countries.

The National Immigration Forum, an advocacy organization based in Washington DC, noted there are three iterations of Great Replacement Theory in an article on the topic. They are:

  • Rhetoric of invasion: this version of Great Replacement paints the Replacement as a hostile takeover, the worst of neighboring societies sneaking across borders that can only be stopped with a hardline immigration policy, the halting of immigration altogether, or violence.
  • Voter replacement: this version of Great Replacement says that the reason for the replacement is political, that these immigrants are here to sway political power. Since Great Replacement is a far-right conspiracy theory, this strain of Great Replacement fallaciously assumes that immigrants are guaranteed to vote for left-wing parties.
  • Antisemitism: Since spouting a conspiracy theory that white people are such the center of the universe that the continents of Africa, Asia and South America conspire together to send immigrants to predominantly white countries to copulate the white race out of existence isn’t racist enough, how about some good old antisemitism? Yes, the third and final strain of Great Replacement is closely tied to the international Jewish conspiracy, saying that the Jews who control the world from behind the scenes are sending immigrants to Western countries en masse because…reasons.

Who’s Responsible for the Great Replacement Theory?

There are several people you could consider “responsible” for Great Replacement Theory.

If you’re talking in terms of invention, that “””””””””honor”””””””” goes to Jean Raspail, a French author. In 1973, he wrote Les Camp de Saints, translated into English as The Camp of the Saints. This dystopian novel depicts the slow destruction of Western civilization via mass immigration from countries of the Global South. The book is revered in white supremacist circles.

If you’re talking about who named the conspiracy, that “””””””””””honor”””””””””” goes to Renaud Camus, another French writer. His 2011 book Le Grand Remplacement (The Great Replacement) theorized that “replacist elites” were colluding to take advantage of declining birth rates in Europe to flood Europe with African and Middle Eastern immigrants.

If you’re talking who popularized the theory, look to former Iowa Representative Steve King, French presidential candidate Marine Le Pen, and contender for the most punchable face on the planet Tucker Carlson. In 2017, Steve King tweeted, “We can’t restore our civilization with someone else’s babies.” In 2019, Marine Le Pen referenced Great Replacement. (Link leads to a French-language article.) And The New York Times published two articles focusing on how Tucker Carlson both promoted Great Replacement ideas and emboldened other conservative figures to promote similar ideas. And while Tucker is the main promoter at Fox News, he’s not the only one: Laura Ingraham and Jeanine Pirro have both used Great Replacement rhetoric in their programs on Fox News.

What Have Been the Consequences of Great Replacement?

The crux of this post is an act of violence fueled by the Great Replacement Theory. However, the violence in Buffalo is far from the first time someone picked up a weapon in the name of keeping the white race from being overrun.

On August 11, 2017, hundreds of white supremacists gathered in Charlottesville, Virginia, for an event called “Unite the Right.” The white supremacists marched while chanting slogans like “You will not replace us” and “Jews will not replace us.” (Sound familiar?) Counter-protests sprung up, and the event came to a horrific end when a man drove a car through a gathered crowd, killing counter-protestor Heather Heyer.

On October 27, 2018, another human trash heap attacked the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He shot and killed 11 Jewish people attending a service and injured another 6. Much like He-Who-Will-Not-Be-Named-Buffalo-Edition, the perpetrator’s Internet footprint showed he frequented white supremacist forums and believed in white genocide, a conspiracy theory closely tied to Great Replacement theory. Police found the shooter’s motive amongst the rambling about Jews: that the Hebrew Immigrant Aid Society (HIAS) was funneling Central American migrants into the US to kill white people.

On March 15, 2019, a man attacked two mosques in New Zealand. 51 people were killed in the attacks. In a pattern that should be familiar by now, the shooter left a manifesto literally titled “The Great Replacement.” It was usual white supremacist fare: fearmongering and racism against immigrants, praising prior violence against Muslims, and exalting other mass shooters.

On August 23, 2019, a white man drove 650 miles from the Dallas/Fort Worth area to El Paso, Texas. He opened fire inside of a Walmart with an AK-47 rifle, killing 23 and injuring 23. Police found a manifesto titled “The Inconvenient Truth” published on the white supremacist haven site 8chan. The writer expressed his belief in a “Hispanic invasion” of the United States and his hope that the violence he rained down on the Hispanic population of El Paso would deter Hispanic people from coming to America.

We must also consider the use of Great Replacement Theory dogwhistles. While few conservative figures have expressed full-on support for Great Replacement Theory, many of them, including former President Donald Trump, Turning Point USA’s Charlie Kirk, and Florida Representative Matt Gaetz, have echoed tenets of Great Replacement Theory.

What Can We Do to Fight Great Replacement Theory?

Ultimately, it’s up to our lawmakers to put an end to mass shootings. Anti-domestic terrorism laws, stricter gun control laws, and smarter approaches to tracking firearms have been the key to the low rates of gun violence in other countries, and that legislation can only be passed by Congress. But, there are things we the citizens can do to fight the influence of Great Replacement Theory ideas:

  • Don’t name mass shooters. I’ve been routinely using insults in place of names throughout this post. Partly, it’s to provide some levity in a post about a very unfunny subject, but I’m also doing it for a good reason: it denies what these killers want, fame. In an article for the National Catholic Reporter, Adam Lankford, a criminal justice professor from the University of Alabama, said that the way media covers mass shooters, and especially how they name the shooter and shine a light on their backgrounds, can embolden other potential shooters. We can see this in the above cases, where the shooters in Great Replacement-fueled violence named other terrorists with similar causes in their motivations. By leaving the shooters nameless, these killers are robbed of the gratification of fame through violence, the chances of copycat crimes go down dramatically, and the focus goes back to where it belongs, the victims.
  • Amplify voices speaking against Great Replacement Theory. Specifically, conservative voices who have spoken against Great Replacement rhetoric. They might feel hard to find, but they exist. The increasingly radical turn of American conservatism means that condemnation of Great Replacement Theory from the left will not only be ineffective, it might actually make it more popular in conservative politics. I can give you at least two people to fall back on. Linda Chavez, who headed the US Commission on Civil Rights during the Reagan Administration, condemned Great Replacement Theory during an episode of MSNBC’s All In with Chris Hayes. Following the death of Heather Heyer, former Presidents George H.W. Bush and George W. Bush condemned the Unite the Right rally and the racism that motivated it. Introducing dissenting opinions into the echo chamber is one way to get a real discourse going.
  • Use the Socratic method. However its proponents try to spin it, the Great Replacement is a conspiracy theory, a racist yarn spun by white supremacists and their sympathizers who are terrified of the consequences they could face if they ever lost their white privilege. Because of this, Great Replacement can’t stand up to critical thought. So if you ever hear someone spewing Great Replacement rhetoric, you can poke holes in their arguments by asking questions like:
    • What’s so bad about more immigrants coming to America? The colonists were immigrants. Were they bad?
    • If immigrants are freeloaders, why do immigrants make up a bigger percentage of the US population than the native-born population? (Source)
    • How are you so certain immigrants will vote Democrat? If that’s the case, why did a survey find that 23% of undocumented immigrants either identify as Republican or right-leaning? (Source)
    • (specifically if they mention Tucker Carlson) You know a judge ruled that Tucker Carlson’s show is a crock pot of misinformation, right? (Source)
    • You’re scared of white people becoming the minority? Why? Are minorities treated badly? (There’s no source–I got that one from a TikTok audio.)
  • Support immigrants. Even if Great Replacement doesn’t cause violence, it can sow the seeds for it by encouraging anti-immigrant rhetoric. So support immigrants. Make immigrants in your community feel welcome or volunteer with organizations that help immigrants. Show your support for pro-immigrant legislation.

The state of the government today, with many politicians being bankrolled by the NRA and gun companies, means that better gun control laws might not be passed in our time. But we’re not helpless. We can tear Great Replacement to shreds, expose it for the racist and nativist crock of lies it is. We can inexorably tie its ideas to such horrific violence as the 10 people killed in Buffalo. We can deny Great Replacement-motivated terrorists the infamy they load a gun to gain.

Change? In this country? It’s not impossible.

Nostalgia, Ultra

Genuine question: are you required to have peaked in high school to write for a teen drama?

I don’t have HBO, so everything I’ve heard about the show Euphoria I’ve heard secondhand. But after a celebrated first season, several articles came out criticizing the amount of sex and drug use in the second season. And this controversy isn’t new: Skins, a British teen drama named after a slang word for rolling papers, made all kinds of waves when it premiered for the same reasons as Euphoria: lots of sex, lots of drug use, and no attempt at discretion. The controversy reached its climax when MTV attempted an American remake, only to can it after one season due to accusations of child pornography.

But here’s the strange thing: I watched a few episodes of Skins. And I really liked it.

Why?

The reason I ask if peaking in high school is a prerequisite to writing for the Skinses and the Euphorias is because there’s a nostalgic quality to these types of shows. The gratuity of the sex and the drugs in these kinds of shows makes it feel like the writers are using these characters and plots to smile back on their younger days.

And again, what I watched of Skins, I liked. Which makes no sense. I have no reason to get nostalgic feelings from Skins. I’m not British. I was a teenager a generation later than the characters on Skins (2013-2017 to the 2007-2013 that Skins aired). I didn’t have a tight-knit group of friends in high school like the Skins Gang. The adults in my life weren’t criminally incompetent. And I definitely didn’t have the rampant partying, drug use and sex that made Skins so controversial.

But I think I figured out why. And do you know how I figured it out?

TikTok!

I can’t find the exact video (and judging from some technical errors a few posts ago, I couldn’t post it even if I could) but I was scrolling TikTok and I found the unthinkable: a video about nostalgia for the year 2020.

Yes, 2020. The year that the continent of Australia catching on fire and former President Trump firing the possible first shot of World War III was overshadowed by a global pandemic we still haven’t recovered from and more senseless murders of black people by police making global racial tensions explode. The year where the most nail-biting election in US history spun off into accusations of stolen elections and radicalized citizens breaking into the US Capitol and assaulting police officers. The year so awful, that Time magazine’s cover image for their December 2020 issue drew an X over 2020, something that it’s only previously done to condemn pitstains of humanity like Adolf Hitler, Saddam Hussein, and high-ranking members of al-Qaeda. That 2020.

Someone on TikTok was nostalgic for it.

And so were a bunch of people in the user’s comment section.

And this made me realize: the human brain is really, really dumb.

And I do mean the brain. What I’m about to talk about affects every human being on Earth, smart, dumb, black, white, rich, poor, religious, secular, and any other category you can come up with. Humans are obsessed with familiarity. There’s scientific proof for this: in the Scientific American article “Brain Seeks Patterns Where None Exist,” the author talks about illusory pattern perception, the tendency for people to see patterns in situations where there aren’t any. Researchers at the University of Texas at Austin put students through six different tests, including simulations of the stock market and asking subjects if they saw images in television static. Every student saw an image that wasn’t there or a pattern in the stock market that didn’t exist.

Our brains are so geared towards familiarity that it can cause problems.

The main reason addiction is hard to break is because of extinction bursts. Extinction bursts are a physiological reaction to a change in habits. Familiarity makes channels in the brain, and the brain really wants to stick to those channels. When you’re on the verge of changing your neuron paths, the brain will fire off one final blast of feel-good chemicals, trying to make you stick to your established neuron paths. This is why someone trying to quit smoking suddenly smokes a whole pack after a month of sobriety.

Stockholm syndrome is another way our brain’s preoccupation with familiarity can turn toxic. Stockholm syndrome is a psychological condition where the victim in a captor/victim dynamic develops a psychological dependency on their captor. This can be a hostage developing affection for their kidnapper, the abused in an abusive relationship staying in the relationship despite knowing the danger to their person, or abused children staying under their parents’ control even in adulthood, when they’re within their means to leave their parents behind and never return.

Our brain is so geared for familiarity that we grasp for familiarity, even when what was familiar was dangerous. Throughout the Pentateuch, the first five books of the Bible, the Israelite tribe repeatedly waxed nostalgic about their days as slaves to the Egyptians. I could dig around for Biblical references, but VeggieTales distilled all those instances down in a hilarious manner, so here’s that:

The Israelites longed for the days of Egypt. Those days included hard labor, living in a ghetto, and the wonton slaughter of their children. But given the choice between returning to their chains and the unknown of fighting for the Promised Land, many Israelites fell back on the familiar instead of God’s promise.

Domestic violence survivors can also suffer from dangerous nostalgia. After escaping their abusive situations, some survivors reminisce about the good times in their relationships, to the point they may be tempted to return to their abuser. These relationships may have included physical, verbal, or sexual abuse, gaslighting, or even attempted murder, but in the unfamiliar landscape of singleness and safety, the survivor’s psyche aches for familiarity, even though what was familiar was a life of walking on eggshells and dreading the next downturn in the relationship.

Now, you may be wondering what point I’m driving towards. I went from talking about teen dramas to talking about slavery and domestic abuse.

My point: nostalgia is always a lie.

Let me explain.

Before 2020, the worst year of my life was 2013. I went into the year being homeschooled when I desperately wanted to end middle school with my friends at my old school. I was a sullen, depressed emotional wreck. My parents heard about a church camp, and passed the word on to my youth group, and the week I spent at camp was unquestionably the best week of the year. Too bad such an emotional high led to such an emotional crash days after camp was over. I went into high school the same depressed, sullen emotional wreck I started the year as, and ended the year…you guessed it, sullen and depressed, with a bonus heap of disappointment that high school wasn’t nearly the adventure shows and movies had made it out to be.

And yet, when I found the “Top Hits of 2013” playlist on Spotify, I followed it. Liked the vibe, even. I nodded along and flashed back to the good times of 2013, a year I hated 360 days of.

Merriam-Webster defines nostalgia as “a wistful or excessively sentimental yearning for return to or of some past period or irrecoverable condition.” By its very definition, nostalgia is an idealization, a version of the past where anything negative is sanded off. The fact of the matter is, any time period sucks, and you don’t have to dig deep to find that out. Ask any civil rights activist or participant in Stonewall how fun the ’60s were. Ask any LGBTQ+ person how fun the ’80s were, assuming they didn’t die of an AIDS diagnosis the government did nothing to help with. Today, some people deem 2016 the last good year, but good luck telling that to anyone from 2016.

My point is: nostalgia is a coping mechanism. Humans are naturally resistant to change, and turn to what’s familiar when change comes a-knockin’. Heck, more research found that watching nostalgic shows or listening to familiar music helped people’s mental health during the COVID-19 pandemic. So, nostalgia isn’t automatically a bad thing. The danger comes when we get too lost in the rose-colored sauce. We can get myopic about the darker aspects of the past. In fact, entire political movements have sprung up with the goal of bringing the past to the present.

So, to conclude and to take words from a certain split-personalitied mummy-looking suit-wearing protagonist of an aight Disney+ series, embrace the chaos. To be comforted by the familiar is natural, to cling to the familiar and shy away from anything new is unhealthy, possibly dangerous. So run to the unknown. Remember: the past is nothing but the future that’s already happened.

I should trademark that. Until next time, dear reader.

…but seriously, do you have to peak in high school to write for teen dramas?

TIWTTA: The 14 Characteristics of Fascism

Today I want to talk about the 14 characteristics of fascism.

Hi, everyone. I’m back for another installment of Today I Want to Talk About… (TIWTTA), a series where I take a hot topic and break it down. Today’s topic, as always, is a relevant one.

“Fascism” is a buzzword today. Out of curiosity, I typed “fascism” into Google News. Of the first 10 results, nine of them were about contemporary topics rather than historical instances. And it’s not partisan: both left- and right-wing sources referred to their counterparts as fascist. So, who’s being truthful?

I’m not here to say.

That’s why we’re here to talk about the 14 characteristics of fascism: because I have biases too, and as Internet discourse has taught us, practically any governmental action can be spun as “tyranny” or “fascism.” To avoid stepping on any toes, any references to real-life governments (and there will be a lot of them) will be historical rather than current. So, here we go.

Who came up with the characteristics?

The 14 characteristics were brainstormed by Umberto Eco (1932-2016), an Italian medieval scholar, semiotician, philosopher, author, critic, and political commentator. His 1995 essay “Ur-Fascism” outlined 14 points that, should a government check off, may not be a fascist government yet, but they’re on their way there. In 2003, political scientist Lawrence W. Britt came up with his own 14 characteristics. I’m going to focus on Eco’s 14 characteristics, but if you want to see what Britt has to say, click here.

What are the characteristics, and what are examples of them?

The cult of tradition.

In fascist systems, the focus is always on the past. Citizens fall under the sway of the ruler because the leader promises to take them back to some kind of golden age, whether or not that golden age ever happened. The cult of tradition is usually very syncretistic, incorporating ideas from all kinds of religions and political theories into the leader’s platform to make it more enticing to the citizenry.

The easy example is Adolf Hitler’s rise to power. Hitler entered German politics during one of the worst economic depressions in the history of any country. Hitler accrued power by promising to restore Germany back to its pre-WW1 status. And, as Eric Metaxas detailed in his fantastic biography of Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the Third Reich made their own theology that appealed to the strong Christian culture of 20th-century Germany and associated Christian faith with Nazism. (It’s important to know that this was an act: while no one knows for sure if Hitler was religious, many of his underlings weren’t, and made that clear behind closed doors.)

The rejection of modernism.

In keeping with this theme of obsessive traditionalism is a rejection of modernism. I don’t know how to talk about this without using an example, so example!

When the Khmer Rouge won the Cambodian Civil War, Pol Pot made a concerted effort to start the country over. He renamed Cambodia to Democratic Kampuchea and forced the population to move into the countryside and work hard labor. He also came down hard on anything “Western,” which translated to anything having to do with non-Cambodian culture or the previous government. Libraries and religious institutions were destroyed, ethnic and religious minorities were executed en masse, and intellectuals and workers in the pre-Khmer Rouge government were hunted down and killed.

Rejection of modernism also fueled the Nazi ideal of blut und boden (“blood and soil/earth”). The Third Reich held up rural workers as superior to German city slickers and closely tied Aryan ideals to rural life. This not only made the draw to Nazism stronger to the rural working class hit hard by the post-WW1 depression, it also deepened nationwide anti-Semitism. Propaganda taught that Jews had bought up the countryside and forced Aryans to move into cities.

Action for action’s sake.

I’m going to quote Eco directly here because he says it better than I ever could:

Action being beautiful in itself, it must be taken before, or without, any previous reflection. Thinking is a form of emasculation. Therefore culture is suspect insofar as it is identified with critical attitudes. Distrust of the intellectual world has always been a symptom of Ur-Fascism, from [Hermann Göring, second-in-command to Hitler] alleged statement (“When I hear talk of culture I reach for my gun”) to the frequent use of such expressions as “degenerate intellectuals,” “eggheads,” “effete snobs,” “universities are a nest of reds.”

Umberto Eco, “UR-Fascism”

Fascists are always anti-intellectual. There are many reasons for it, both intellectual and practical: the ability to sow division by painting intellectuals as patronizing elites; because intellectuals by nature poke hole in the idealized past that fascists present as a goal; because campuses are a breeding ground for resistance movements; and because any political movement lives or dies through young people, so it’s imperative that fascist forces recruit as many young people as possible, and intellectual work prevents that.

Pol Pot, who executed intellectuals by the truckload, is one example of fascist anti-intellectualism. Another is Francisco Franco, dictator of Spain who ruled Spain with an iron fist from 1939 to 1975. His nacionalista forces perpetrated El Terror Blanco, political violence against groups Franco considered undesirable and critics of Franco’s rule. Intellectuals were chief among them: newspaper editors, college professors, and writers. (The most famous victim of El Terror Blanco is Federico García Lorca, a Spanish poet whose body has never been found.)

Disagreement is treason.

Tying closely to point #3 is the idea of disagreement as treason. The reasons for this are hopefully clear by now: fascist thought can’t withstand critical analysis. And questioning the actions of a fascist government is how rebellions start. So, they must be nipped in the bud.

Two examples of this can be found in South America. The first and more famous is the dictatorship of Augusto Pinochet. After taking power through a military coup, Pinochet, about as extreme a conservative as one can be, outlawed leftist political parties. He took a page from Pol Pot’s book by having his secret police, la Dirección de Inteligencia Nacional or DINA for short, hunt down and execute members of his predecessor Salvador Allende’s administration. And horrific torture awaited anyone arrested for political reasons. And that was assuming Pinochet decided to keep you alive. Many dissidents were treated to a death flight, being dropped from a flying helicopter to either die from impact or drown in the body of water they were dropped into.

In the neighboring country of Argentina, Jorge Rafael Videla ousted President Isabel Perón from power in a military coup. Videla started la Guerra Sucia, state-sponsored terrorism meant to stamp out resistance. Taking cues from his neighbor Pinochet, many of the 13,000-30,000 Argentinians killed or “disappeared” during the Videla Regime did so from the open door of a helicopter.

Fear of difference.

To quote Eco again: “The first appeal of a fascist or prematurely fascist movement is an appeal against the intruders. Thus Ur-Fascism is racist by definition.” Fascists always exploit division, turning the populace against some “other.” And the “other” need not be a race: historically, the “other” has included LGBTQ+ people, communists, unionists, journalists, intellectuals, etc.

I’m not going to use the obvious example. Instead, let’s look to Guatemala. From 1960 to 1996, Guatemala was engulfed in a civil war. The Guatemalan government used the unrest to wage a genocide against the indigenous Mayan people. The worst of the violence occurred in the year that Efraín Ríos Montt was president of Guatemala. It’s estimated that 75,000 Mayans were murdered during Montt’s presidency.

Appeal to a frustrated middle class.

Fascism is the logical conclusion of grievance politics, politics centered around resentment of others. You may have noticed by now many fascist leaders don’t come into office democratically. They take leadership by force, by emerging victorious in a civil war or ousting the current leader at the end of a gun barrel. Either during their rise or during their rule, these leaders will fan the flames of division, pitting citizens against one another. Divide and conquer: citizens ready to turn on one another will happily follow a leader who promises victory over the “other.”

Appealing to a frustrated middle class is how the Rwandan Genocide happened. When Belgian colonists were removed from Rwanda, they deliberately installed a government full of Tutsis, an ethnic minority. The Tutsi government oppressed the Hutus, the ethnic majority. And the Hutu citizens directed their resentment at the only people they could: Tutsi citizens. Interahamwe and Impuzamagambi, Hutu militias, exploited this resentment against Tutsis to radicalize Hutu citizens into anti-Tutsi violence. Georges Rutaganda, a higher-up in the Interahamwe, also ran the Radio Télévision Libre des Mille Collines radio station, where he regularly broadcasted anti-Tutsi propaganda and where instructions were issued when the way was cleared for Hutus to kill Tutsis with impunity.

Obsession with a plot.

An unfortunate aspect of human psychology: we easily rally against something. And fascists know this. So, one of the first orders of business is to feed their followers a plot. By convincing their followers it’s them against the world and/or they’re under attack, you have a citizenry whose collective mind is geared towards war. You also see this in cults and hate groups. Doomsday preppers stock food and weapons with the anticipation of the government declaring war on its citizens. White supremacist groups like the Ku Klux Klan and the Aryan Brotherhood rally because they fear what minorities would do to white society without the fear of white violence.

Urban legends say that obsession with a plot led to Josef Stalin’s downfall. Stalin, for obvious reasons, was a paranoid guy. That paranoia motivated him to purge his government, wantonly executing people he thought were spies. Because of his hair-trigger, when he suffered the stroke that killed him, his subordinates left his body for hours because they feared for the safety of the people who entered Stalin’s chamber to check on him.

Simultaneous perceptions of the enemy as strong and weak.

Say it with me now: there is no consistency in fascism. And one place where there’s real inconsistency is how the leader and his subjects perceive the “other.” Examples of this cognitive dissonance can be found in anti-Semitic stereotypes. On the one hand, Jews are depicted as sub-humans, as scheming misers with huge noses and beady eyes who perform human sacrifices. On the other hand, Jews are also inhumanly smart and connected, having the resources and strength of community to control the global economy and global media, cause 9/11, falsify the Holocaust, etc.

Similarly contradictory propaganda surrounded slaves in the Antebellum South. Slaves were simultaneously primitive, sexually voracious darkies who would descend into savagery without the structure of the slavery system and conniving schemers who would think up a plan to overthrow their masters with any amount of alone time or education.

This teeter-totter of an inferiority complex and supremacy drags the followers deeper. They’re motivated to back the leader’s human rights violations both by humiliation-induced resentment as well as by the feeling that victory is over the next hill.

Pacifism is trafficking with the enemy, and life is permanent warfare.

Another Eco quote:

For Ur-Fascism there is no struggle for life but, rather, life is lived for struggle. Thus pacifism is trafficking with the enemy. It is bad because life is permanent warfare.

This is why so much violence follows a dictator taking power: violence against minorities, political opponents, journalists and any kind of resistance. Even if the resistant forces do so non-violently, in a fascist’s eyes the act of existing is an act of war.

We can return to Rwanda for an example of this. While the Tutsis were the primary target of the Hutu militias, many Hutus were also killed. These were moderate Hutus who either refused to participate in the violence or protected Tutsis. In the eyes of Hutu Power, refusing to butcher Tutsis was an act of treason and was punishable by death.

Contempt for the weak and a popular elitism.

Never be fooled. For all the bluster fascist leaders make about ushering their countries into a golden age, their plan is to always install the same kind of hierarchical society they overthrew or succeeded, with themselves and the apples of their eye at the top. To disguise this, they present a popular elitism to the people, telling them they are a chosen people and residents of other countries pale in comparison to them. At the same time, the leader makes clear that some citizens are more elite than others. Think of the phrase the Seven Commandments are whittled down to by the end of Animal Farm: “All animals are equal, but some animals are more equal than others.”

And, as hierarchies are designed to do, those “above” others have deep contempt for those “below” them. The Aryan Race and the Jews, the Khmer Rouge and the Vietnamese, the Hutus and the Tutsis, the Guatemalans and the Mayans…

Everybody is educated to be a hero.

In fascist mythology, the usual heroic archetype is inverted. Whereas a hero is usually an exceptional individual, fascism makes everyone a hero. And whereas with a typical hero, death is the ultimate sacrifice, death, and especially death fighting enemies of the state, is viewed as the ultimate reward.

Eco gave an example in his essay. The falangistas, political devotees of Francisco Franco, had the motto of Viva la Muerte, “long live death.”

Machismo.

With its heroic fantasies, hierarchical structure, love of action and contempt towards peace, fascism could be considered the politics of toxic masculinity. In a fascist society, women in the desired group are, at best, accessories to their men and, at worst, glorified servants meant to cater to men’s every need. Machismo also shows itself as extreme homophobia and an inclination towards sexual violence.

Chilean prisons were already nightmarish under Pinochet’s rule, but the horror ratcheted up to eleven for female prisoners. Not only were female prisoners regularly raped, but reports also emerged of prison guards training animals, dogs and rats, to have sex with inmates. One woman testified that she was forced to have sex with her father and brother.

Jumping up to the Dominican Republic, El Jefe Rafael Trujillo was a notorious womanizer. He was married three times and had multiple mistresses. That’s shady; the rape that took place in Dominican prisons is evil.

Selective populism and standing against “rotten” parliamentary governments.

I had to Google “populism,” because for how frequently it was used during the Trump Administration, I never got a solid definition. Based on that, I’m going to directly quote Eco again:

Ur-Fascism is based upon a selective populism, a qualitative populism, one might say. In a democracy, the citizens have individual rights, but the citizens in their entirety have a political impact only from a quantitative point of view – one follows the decisions of the majority. For Ur-Fascism, however, individuals as individuals have no rights, and the People is conceived as a quality, a monolithic entity expressing the Common Will. Since no large quantity of human beings can have a common will, the Leader pretends to be
their interpreter. Having lost their power of delegation, citizens do not act; they are only called on to play the role of the People. Thus the People is only a theatrical fiction.

This conflation of collective and individual is coupled with a conscious effort to erode trust in previous forms of government. Fascists usually come on the scene during an unpopular leader’s reign, and exploit dissatisfaction with the present government to gain popularity. They’ll also use this opportunity to sow distrust in democracy. They may spread rumors of voter fraud or allege that those in power are abusing their power. Of course, the great irony is once the leader takes power, they will do everything they accuse their predecessors of.

It is important to note that populism as a political ideology is not necessarily bad. Populism is defined as “a political approach that strives to appeal to ordinary people who feel that their concerns are disregarded by established elite groups.” By this definition, Bernie Sanders is a populist, but you don’t see him dropping people from helicopters or making a personal police force.

But speaking of Bernie, I pored and pored Google, and all examples I could find were modern, so in the interest of not getting death threats, I’m going to move on to the 14th and final characteristic.

The use of Newspeak.

Newspeak, coined by George Orwell in his seminal novel 1984, is “ambiguous euphemistic language used chiefly in political propaganda,” according to Google. The idea of it is thought control. By dressing up unpleasant topics in flowery language or simplifying complex topics down into simple words, the citizen’s mind is conditioned into nodding along with whatever the leader says, even if morally they disagree.

This last example comes from the good ol’ US of A. During the Iraq War, Iraqis suspected of allegiance to al-Qaeda were detained and subjected to “enhanced interrogation techniques” in holding sites like Abu Ghraib and Guantanamo Bay. Such techniques included things like physical assault, forcing detainees to stay awake to the point of hallucinating, waterboarding, sodomy, and threats to kill detainees’ families. Torture–that’s the point I’m trying to get at. These “techniques” were torture techniques. But with a name like “enhanced interrogation techniques,” the Bush administration and US Armed Forces tried to present it to the American people as a necessary evil.

Conclusion

What to take away from all of this? Be smart.

Like I said in the introduction, part of the reason fascism is hard to spot is because the term has been watered down. Because people from the left and right have used it to denigrate leaders’ decisions, the word has lost the punch it should have.

So, use these points as Eco intended you to: as a litmus test. Political leaders are human beings. They can do things for the benefit of the people they represent, but sin doesn’t go away when you’re sworn into office. Making a selfish decision or not thinking through the potential consequences of a law doesn’t make them a fascist. But if they’re consistently pushing rhetoric that falls in line with the 14 characteristics Eco outlined….BEWARE.

Until next time, dear reader.

Love Wins

I have a tradition.

At the start of every month, I change my home and lock screens on my phone and tablet. I’m indecisive. Sue me.

At the start of this month, I changed up my wallpapers as usual. And my home screen picture was a trip down memory lane: a photo from my friends Matt and Kali’s wedding.

Look at that newlywed glow!

Seeing that photo every time I use my phone is one way to get regular hits of serotonin. But seeing the three of our smiling mugs also made me think of two questions: 1. Why didn’t I mind the heaven and earth that had to be moved for this picture to be taken? 2. What’s the deeper meaning behind the answer to question 1?

You see, because I’m behind the curve and don’t have my license, getting to Wisconsin for the wedding wasn’t as simple as hopping in my car on Friday morning and then hanging around in Madison until Matt and Kali said their “I dos.” I had to:

  1. Buy a train ticket.
  2. Talk amongst my roommates and see who was willing to get up at 4:30 in the morning on a Friday to drive me down to the train station.
  3. Ride a train to Chicago.
  4. Run from the Chicago train station to the Chicago bus station.
  5. Ride this bus to Madison, Wisconsin.
  6. Catch an Uber from the bus stop to the hotel.
  7. Panic text Kali when I realized I’d been so focused on getting to Wisconsin that I hadn’t made an exit plan.
  8. And to fund all of this, I had to work a fast food job that at one point made me scream into a pillow for the first time.

And yet, despite the early rising, the seat rash, wanting to light my tie on fire out of sheer frustration, and possibly being racially profiled in a wine store (don’t ask), all the negatives feel like afterthoughts compared to being in the crowd when Kali and Matt were announced as husband and wife, dancing with friends at the reception, and even the drive back to Michigan with two of the bridesmaids. Why?

Answer: because I love Kali and Matt.

They’re my friends. Our friendship spans three countries (the three of us met at our American university, Matt and I studied abroad together in Spain, and Kali visited during advising break, and I kept up with Kali while she was abroad in Peru). The three of us have seen each other at low points, and been there for one another in dark times. We’ve also celebrated each other’s high points.

One in particular.

In the shadow of the mountain of the love between Matt, Kali and I, transportation shenanigans and crabby customers are minor inconveniences.

So, let’s talk about love.

Geez, I feel like a cheeseball even typing that sentence.

What is love? (Besides a cheesy hit single from the ’90s?) Two different sources have definitive answers, and I want to talk about both of them.

The first and more recent is CS Lewis. In his book The Four Loves, Lewis analyzes four types of categories, given names and definitions by the Greeks. They are:

  • Storge, the love of affection and family. This is the love of familiarity, the type of love made through regular close contact. Studies have shown that neglected babies have problems in brain development, showing that storge is necessary for survival
  • Philia, the love of friendship. Lewis called this the love dismissed, and said that “few value it because few experience it.” He also noted that philia can never be one-sided. Proof of that: pick a random celebrity and type their name into Instagram’s search engine. See all those fan pages that come up? Now see how many of those pages the celebrity follows. And if you’re one of the people who dismisses philia, consider how many of the most acclaimed movies and shows revolve around friendship–every sitcom ever (including the one literally named Friends), Sex and the City, Band of Brothers, Stand by Me, Naruto, The Shawshank Redemption, etc.
  • Eros, the love of romance. When you hear of eros, your mind may jump straight to something sexual; rein that instinct in. Culture has made that association too (eros is the root word for erotic, after all) but Lewis distinguished between eros, romance, and Venus, sexuality. Eros is about intimacy: if you’ve ever seen an old couple holding hands, that may be the embodiment of eros. Unlike philia, eros can be one-sided
  • Agape, the love of charity. Lewis considered this the ultimate form of love, the kind of love that storge, philia and eros built up to. This is the love of self-sacrifice, of dog-tired parents getting up to comfort a crying baby, of a boy/girlfriend joining in on a hobby they don’t like because their partner does, of staying by a relative’s side as a terminal illness ravages their body. The ultimate example of agape is none other than Jesus Christ, suffering and dying for the redemption of humankind.

The second answer comes from the Bible, in 1 Corinthians 13.

If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1 Corinthians 13: 1-7

Takeaways?

  • No amount of faith or works can salvage an unloving heart. I have a rocky relationship with street evangelism for this reason. I have no doubt the majority of people you see preaching from a soapbox on a street corner have good intentions. But the nature of street evangelism–going to a place where you don’t know anyone and giving a message they may not want to hear–leaves little room for love. Evangelism based on numbers games is evangelism that doesn’t foster love.
  • It is possible to sacrifice unlovingly. Let me preface this by saying any references to the Oscars are getting deleted. Now, in one of his stand-up bits, Chris Rock mocked black people who expect praise for things they’re supposed to do, like not committing crime and providing for their kids. All jokes aside, tons of children have had their parents leverage their well-being against them, as if they had a choice coming into the world a complete dependent. To paraphrase a certain blue-skinned space archer: your parents may be your parents, but they’re not always your mommy and daddy.
  • There is Biblical justification for giving Internet couples side-eye. “Love is patient, love is kind.” So, not those stupid couples that “play” pranks on one another or call each other horrible names for Internet likes. “…it does not boast, is not proud.” The next time you see a Kardashian bragging on what their Sugar Daddy of the Week bought them, remember that.
  • Love means taking the high road. A LOT. The Bible came up with the idea of “arguing right” a few thousand years before psychologists did: no personal attacks (“…does not dishonor others…”), “I feel” statements, not “you always” statements (“…it is not self-seeking…), keeping a cool head (“…it is not easily angered…”) and no keeping receipts on past grievances (“…it keeps no record of wrongs.”) When people hear “self-sacrifice,” they think lofty things like donating kidneys or Christ’s sacrifice. And while those things are self-sacrifice, it’s also not doing what comes naturally to human beings. No one has to be taught to hold grudges, or that jabs at people’s insecurities cut the deepest. That’s dying to yourself.

And reader, I’ve arrived at an impasse. Because, to no one’s shock except my own, love is a very large topic. Seeing how I got this post’s name from Rob Bell’s book, it’s fitting that I push and push towards a point only to drop it and move on. And because I don’t have enough bulleted lists, here’s another one for conclusions:

  • Bad things happen when you get the Four Loves confused. Ever heard someone say that men and women can’t be friends? Or heard somebody complain about being in the friendzone? It’s a love disconnect: where one party is experiencing philia, the other is experiencing eros. Incest happens when eros love and storge love are conflated. Need I continue?
  • No man is an island. Here in America, there’s a strong spirit of individualism built into the foundation of this country. And while everyone must be their own person in the sense of not being codependent, nothing is capable of being done alone, not even existence. I’ve heard people try to dismiss love as “brain chemicals,” but I repeat: love is dying to yourself, doing things that flies in the face of every animal instinct. Love makes soldiers throw self-preservation to the wind and run into gunfire to pull their wounded fellow man to safety. And as much as we idolize “self-made” people, there are few people who love no one. And those people are terrifying.
  • Love alone is worth the fight. This point is here purely to plug a dope song.

I can’t think of a concluding sentence that doesn’t feel Kumbayah-y, so I’ll conclude how I started:

It’s like the reverse of an Oreo!

Do your part to make a world where love wins, dear reader.

TIWTTA: Critical Race Theory

Today I want to talk about critical race theory.

Welcome back everyone. TIWTTA is a series on this site where I take a current issue and cut through the bullcrap. I did one of these about privilege back in 2020 and then never again. Until now, that is!

Other than Ukraine, there might not be a hotter button topic than critical race theory. And the discourse around it (especially in right-wing spaces) makes it clear a lot of people are being misled. So, a solid definition is a good place to start.

What Is Critical Race Theory?

The simplest definition of critical race theory I could find comes from an Education Week article on the topic: “Critical race theory is an academic concept that is more than 40 years old. The core idea is that race is a social construct, and that racism is not merely the product of individual bias or prejudice, but also something embedded in legal systems and policies.” Key to critical race theory is the concept of systemic racism, defined by The Aspen Institute as “a system in which public policies, institutional practices, cultural representations, and other norms work in various, often reinforcing ways to perpetuate racial group inequity.”

I’ll use Education Week’s example of redlining for an example of critical race theory’s application. Redlining was a governmental practice in the 1930s. Lawmakers would hang up city maps and draw red outlines (hence the name) around neighborhoods they saw as financial risks. Most of these neighborhoods were “risky” because they had majority-black populations. They would pass these maps on to banks, who would then refuse mortgages and loans to residents of “risky” neighborhoods who applied for a mortgage in a “safer” neighborhood, effectively trapping black Americans in these “risky” neighborhoods. Though redlining was outlawed by the 1968 Fair Housing Act, it continues to affect American society to this day. The redlined neighborhoods of yesterday have become the projects and low-income neighborhoods of today. The practice of redlining effectively created the cycle of poverty in the US. Because of the state of these neighborhoods, businesses and community improvement opportunities go elsewhere, keeping these communities in their broken-down state due to lack of resources. Since home ownership is a major financial stabilizer, the disparity between black and white homeowners has also contributed to the wealth gap between black and white people. And because many of the residents in these neighborhoods turn to crime because they have no other options, redlining is also directly responsible for racist ‘tough on crime’ political rhetoric and policing practices.

So: because of a social construct (stereotypes of financial irresponsibility and delinquency wrongly attributed to people because of their skin color) a system (redlining) of public policies (housing discrimination), institutional practices (refusing financial help to black folks looking to buy homes) and cultural representations (black people are lesser and your neighborhoods will suffer if you let them in) perpetuate racial group inequity (the cycle of poverty and discrepancies between the number of white and black homeowners) and also leave behind nasty legal traps long after the system is “abolished” (joblessness, racist policing, “tough on crime” politics).

You picking up what I’m putting down?

Who Created Critical Race Theory?

Eight different figures are considered the “founders” of critical race theory. They all contributed an idea critical (heh) to the school of thought. They are:

  • Derrick Bell (1930-2011), a civil rights lawyer, Harvard professor, and author, got the ball rolling by introducing the idea of interest convergence. Interest convergence is the idea that black people achieve civil rights victories only when black and white interests converge. Bell argued that Brown v. Board of Education was ruled in Brown’s favor because a desegregated America would have a better time winning allies in the Cold War.
  • Charles R. Lawrence III (1943-), an attorney, researcher, educator, and law professor at Georgetown University, focused on the idea of unconscious racism. He defined racism as “a set of beliefs whereby we irrationally attach significance to something called race” and pointed out that, by this definition, all people are racist. It is this type of unconscious racism, as opposed to the overt racism displayed by white supremacists, that plagues the white moderates Martin Luther King Jr. vehemently criticized in his “Letter from a Birmingham Jail.”
  • Kimberlé Williams Crenshaw (1959-), a civil rights activist, scholar, and professor at UCLA and Columbia University, coined the phrase retrenchment. Retrenchment states that white supremacists will always move the goalposts, or retrench, when it comes to proving the superiority of whites over other races. When scientific racism was exposed as pseudoscience, white supremacists focused on the superiority of white cultures. And Crenshaw came up with the idea during the Reagan-era attacks on affirmative action, the next stage of retrenchment when cultural racism faltered. (Today’s attacks on critical race theory are themselves examples of retrenchment.)
  • Richard Delgado (1939-), a legal scholar who teaches at the University of Alabama School of Law, literally wrote the book on CRT. He is also one of the founders of LatCrit, an offshoot of critical race theory that takes its principles and applies it to the treatment of Latin Americans in US society.
  • Alan David Freeman (1943-1995), a law professor at University at Buffalo Law School, worked with Derrick Bell in the early days of Bell developing critical race theory. Freeman promoted a new paradigm of the law. Law, in Freeman’s eyes, was “an evolving statement of acceptable public morality” that’s primary purpose is to “legitimize the existing social structure and, especially, class relationships within that structure.” (In layman’s terms, if you’ve ever seen this meme or something similar to it, the idea comes from Alan David Freeman’s legal theories.) Freeman’s ideas are key to wrapping your head around the idea of systemic racism.
  • Cheryl I. Harris (???-), faculty director for the Critical Race Studies program at the UCLA School at Law, wrote the 1993 article “Whiteness as Property.” The paper itself is 85 pages long, so a summary: white identity and property are deeply interrelated concepts. Because property is so deeply tied to whiteness, laws that protect property often work to elevate white society. (She’s also Earl Sweatshirt’s mother, so even if the paper’s not your speed, that’s cool, innit?)
  • Mari Matsuda (1956-), a lawyer, activist and law professor in the University of Hawaii’s William S. Richardson School of Law, made a name for herself with her 1986 article “Liberal Jurisprudence and Abstracted Visions of Human Nature.” Her paper provided a feminist critique of John Rawls’ theory of justice, and concluded with the idea relevant to this post: that to achieve the society of free equals Rawls idealized in his philosophy, outsider voices and communities must have a place in the law.
  • Patricia J. Williams (1951-), a legal scholar, contributor to The Nation and director of law, technology and ethics at Northeastern University, has been the publicist of critical race theory, discussing it in her The Nation column “Diary of a Mad Law Professor” and having written for The New York Times on the topic of CRT.
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Remember that retrenchment idea Kimberlé Crenshaw came up with? The backlash against “critical race theory” is an example of retrenchment. If you found yourself reading about the founders of CRT and thinking everything they’re talking about sounds way too lofty for elementary schoolers and/or noticed all the founders of CRT are some kind of professor, legal scholar, or lawyer, CONGRATULATIONS! You have done more critical thinking than everyone who’s screamed at school board members for brainwashing their children combined.

Critical race theory–the actual field of study, which is exclusively a grad school-level subject–isn’t what Fox News mentioned 1300 times in a year or what politicians are coasting into office by promising to fight. You can tell because of the many laws on the books cracking down on “critical race theory,” (more on that in a minute) none have a consistent definition of “critical race theory.” Aziz Huq, a lawyer and law professor at the University of Chicago Law School, noted these inconsistencies in his TIME article “The Conservative Case Against Banning Critical Race Theory.” Is it “racial essentialism,” like the Republican Study Committee said in a newsletter? Is it a Marxist scheme defining race as a social construct to stick it to white men, like Ellie Krasne of the Heritage Foundation thinks? Is it identity-based Marxism meant to gear the US government towards a socialist revolution, like Christopher Rufo of the Manhattan Institute believes? Is it emphasizing race over character, as Florida Governor Ron DeSantis contended when he passed the Stop W.O.K.E. Act into law? Is it an especially inflammatory form of identity politics, like Idaho lawmakers said when they passed HB 377?

It’s none of these things, and the people making a stink know it. This uprising is a power play.

One of the oldest tricks in the right-wing playbook is conflation. If you don’t know what I mean, consider this meme:

It’s a satire of real Internet discourse. Even though communism is an economic system (read: communists are most focused on work- and economics-related issues like labor unions, livable wages and wealth equity) conservatives scream “communism” at any left-wing policy, even on issues that communists would logically have little interest in, like gun laws or climate change. By instilling such a rabid hatred of communism in their voters, conservative lawmakers can turn their voter base against virtually anything proposed by liberals. And that’s the idea with the sudden revolt against CRT. First, label anything having to do with race and academics–diversity, inclusion, and equity efforts, affirmative action, curriculum content, etc.–as CRT. Second, throw in misinformation and false equivalencies meant to stir up white fragility and/or make the counter-protestors look like the bad guys, like: critical race theory teaches our kids that discrimination against white people is OK. And besides, it’s demeaning to black people, teaching them that they’re victims. It’s going to make American education worse, and make white students uncomfortable while doing it. Step three: trot out the anti-CRT measures and profit.

As a matter of fact, Republican politicians already are. Fresh off the success of the Stop W.O.K.E. Act, Ron DeSantis passed HB 1557, informally known as the “Don’t Say Gay” Bill, applying the anti-“CRT” veto to curriculum related to LGBTQ+ history and social issues. Texas lawmakers are trying to pass an identical law. And, likely emboldened by the success of the nationwide smear campaign against “critical race theory,” an onslaught of laws targeting LGBTQ+ rights (with emphasis on the T) have been proposed nationwide since January of 2022.

Where Is This Happening?

The short answer: red states. The long answer can be found in the Forbes article “Teacher Anti-CRT Bills Coast to Coast: A State-by-State Guide.” Some highlights:

  • Arizona has an anti-“CRT” law in place for state agencies and, as of February 16, had two bills in gestation forbidding “CRT” from Arizona schools and one forbidding affirming ideas about race.
  • I’ve already mentioned Florida extensively, but believe it or not, it gets worse. Along with the Stop W.O.K.E. Act and the “Don’t Say Gay” Bill, SBs 242 and 148 aim to remove, quote, “anything that makes students feel ‘discomfort, guilt, anguish or any other form of psychological distress'” from classroom settings. Ron DeSantis is also pushing for parents to be able to sue teachers that teach curriculum they disagree with.
  • It’s a bad time to be a teacher in a state that starts with “I.”
    • Idaho was one of the first states to pass an anti-“CRT” law. Idaho lawmakers are in lockstep with Ron DeSantis in fighting for parents’ rights to sue teachers over teaching ideas they object to.
    • Indiana senator Scott Baldwin made national headlines by demanding teachers be impartial when discussing Nazism and fascism in classrooms. His saying the quiet part out loud sunk that particular bill, but four others–SB 415 and HBs 1362, 1389 and 1134–sprung up in its place. These bills would ban gender and race diversity training and would allow school funding to be pulled if staff didn’t comply.
    • Iowa passed HF 802 in spring 2021, banning “racial and sexual stereotyping” in diversity training (read: they disallowed discussion of implicit bias, a foundational concept in diversity training, from diversity training.) Four bills are pending. One forbids negative comments about the Pledge of Allegiance. Another demands teachers take a Baldwinesque “balanced” approach to controversial topics.
  • In the land of McConnell-induced hell, aka Kentucky, four bills would ban gender/diversity training, discussion of certain topics, and would mandate versions to teach a specific version of American history. Teachers could have their credentials revoked should they disobey the bills.
  • Missouri takes the cake with a whopping sixteen bills promoting standard anti-“CRT” fare: ban on “divisive” concepts, a mandated positive presentation of US history, and a requirement of signing a “non-indoctrination clause,” wherein a teacher must teach all sides of political, religious or ideological debates.
  • New Hampshire must have something in the state drinking water, because along with a bill on the books that would forbid mentions of Marxism, socialism and negative portrayals of the Founding Fathers in classroom discussion, the New Hampshire branch of Moms for Lying to Children–I mean, Liberty–is offering bounties to report rule-breaking teachers.
  • In second place for volume behind Missouri is Oklahoma, with nine bills extending the reach of an established anti-“CRT” law in the pipeline. These bills, along with standard anti-“CRT” fare, would ban certain flags from the classroom, disallow teachers from giving extra credit for political activity, and would allow parents to sue teachers for contradicting religious beliefs.
  • Tennessee was one of the states where the critical race theory panic began. Five anti-“CRT” bills are in the pipeline. One of them is Tennessee’s own “Don’t Say Gay” Bill.
  • One of Virginia governor Glenn Youngkin’s first actions in office was to make good on his campaign promise and sign an anti-“CRT” executive order. Five bills supporting the executive order are in the pipeline. They also forbid teachings that criticize capitalism and have a built-in bathroom bill.
  • In third place for who’s taken the most crazy pills is West Virginia, with seven anti-“CRT” bills in the pipeline. One forbids the discussion of certain topics like communism, critical economic theory, Maoism or Marxism unless, quote, “the teacher includes ‘the scope and scale of state sponsored terror and murder, absence of legal process and protection of civil and political rights, forced labor, economic inefficiency and starvations’ that came with such philosophies.”

Twelve states (California, Connecticut, Delaware, Hawaii, Louisiana, Maine, Massachusetts, Nevada, Oregon, Rhode Island, Vermont and Wisconsin) went unmentioned in the article, but considering the article is 2 months old and that anti-CRT bills have sprung up in Democrat stronghold states like New York and Minnesota, don’t think you’re safe because your neighbors have Biden/Harris signs in their yards.

What Can We Do?

With all this talk of conflation and theory and legal consequences, it’s easy to feel like this is out of your pay grade. I’m right there with you. So, here are practical steps:

  • Wake up and remember apathy is the goal. One lingering way Donald Trump has poisoned the Republican Party is by encouraging intimidation politics. All of these laws, passed and pending, punch down: threatening underpaid teachers with termination and under-funded schools and districts with even less money; fighting to keep underrepresented children underrepresented; and threatening legal action against anyone who speaks up. The intent of these laws is to leave people either too scared to resist or too hopeless to look for ways to fight these laws. So see these laws for what they are–legal bullying–and act accordingly.
  • VOTE SMART. People underestimate how important midterms are. While it’s important who’s President or Senate Majority Leader, there are hundreds of thousands of state and local politicians who can hold up or undermine the decisions of the legal, executive and judicial branches. So, vote in 2022 and 2024, but do your research before you do. Kneejerk voting against X, Y and Z is not only how people like Glenn Youngkin get elected, but also how Trojan horse candidates who campaign one way and legislate another get elected. (Looking at you, Kyrsten Sinema and Tulsi Gabbard.)
  • Maliciously comply… One great thing about dogwhistling laws is since they can’t outright discriminate like you could in the Bad Ol’ Days, the vague language these laws employ can easily be flipped on their head. Moms for Liberty cried about this on Twitter when one Florida teacher obeyed the “Don’t Say Gay” bill by banning all gender identifiers from their classroom, including those of cisgender students, and books that include gender-specific monikers like “mother” and father.”
  • …or obey the letter of the law, not the spirit. In the same vein as the above, conservatives’ revolt against books that might make their kids realize radical ideas like “gay people are human beings” or “you have to be an idiot to think mask mandates make America Nazi Germany II” has backfired horribly. Tennessee’s ban of the graphic novel Maus, which has author Art Spiegelman tell the story of his father surviving the Holocaust, made sales for Maus skyrocket. And because Republicans can’t learn from their mistakes, the same thing happened when Ted Cruz brought out an antiracist children’s book to try to get one over on Ketanji Brown Jackson. As more than one person has pointed out, by issuing extensive book bans, conservatives have served curious children reading lists on a platter. And these children don’t live at school, meaning they’re free to read these scary, brainwashing books so long as they do it outside of school. So encourage your kids to read these books and research these ideas in their own time, a sphere no Republican can touch.
  • Read up on your rights. You better believe these laws aren’t being taken sitting down. The ACLU leaped on the variety of ways anti-“CRT” laws violated students and teachers’ First Amendment rights. You should, too.
  • Find and be support. When heads are put together, corruption falls apart. Whatever criticisms you have of conservative forces in this country, they got at least one thing right: they figured out decades ago how much power you can gather by coalescing people with similar goals. So organize those peaceful protests. Write those letters to officials. Attend school board meetings en masse. Make your coalitions. Your opponents can’t complain; it’s their idea. And be a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear to anyone affected by these bills and laws.

We can dismantle these unjust laws.

But only if we work together.

Resources/Works Cited

A E S T H E T I C

Aesthetic [es-thet-ik]: a particular individual’s set of ideas about style and taste, along with its expression. (dictionary.com)

I’ve been thinking about aesthetics a lot these first few months of the new year.

I started the new year by creating a bookstagram page (follow me! FOLLOW MEEEEEEEE!), a fun thing I was doing on my Instagram story blooming into a page of its own. Since getting called out on my less-than-stellar book photos

*BARF*

I’ve been making an effort to improve my photo-taking game. My aesthetic, if you will.

I’ve also been binging this fantastic YouTube channel called SunnyV2, where the narrator goes through the history of social media stars who’ve fallen from grace. The most recent episode I watched was about Dan Bilzerian, a poker player and businessman whose aesthetic of a self-made millionaire has been steadily whittled away by accusations of cooking his books, the revelation that his wealth came from his father’s chicanery on Wall Street, and that what money he has made was used to pay for the women on his arm and rent the mansion he claimed to have bought.

I’ve seen a trend on TikTok where people show the aesthetics of their Instagram profiles. (The two examples I could find were from friends’ pages, so in the interest of not doxxing their TikToks, you’ll have to take my word for it.) And speaking of TikTok, I started following @becauseimmissy_, who makes parody videos of the aesthetics of different types of social media posts.

Because I’m obsessed with going down rabbit holes, I read up on “dark academia,” an aesthetic originating from Tumblr focused around higher education, classical art and literature, and Gothic architecture. (Think Donna Tartt’s The Secret History or shows like The Queen’s Gambit and Sherlock for examples of the vibe.)

Lastly, I’ve been thinking about aesthetics because my personal life is on pause.

Yep. This is another ‘Noah has a problem, so you’re getting a blog post out of it’ post. (Is there another kind? [There’s ‘The Lost Stories of Spain,’ ‘TIWTTA,’ and possibly more book content. The answer is yes.])

Life is at a standstill, dear reader. I’m a recent grad on the recent grad grind for a job. (Which is probably exacerbated by me being a recent English grad on the recent grad grind for a job. Stupid STEM-to-career pipeline.)

During times in your life like this, it’s easy for your mind to wander in the wrong directions:

Envy: everyone else has a job! She went to Costa Rica–how? With what money?

Resentment: isn’t there a labor shortage? As in, companies need people? So hire me, you feet-dragging jerks!

Regret: I should have gone into education. I should have gone to community college. I should have done another internship. I should have gone to that career fair.

Catastrophizing: if I don’t find a job soon, then I’ll be screwed when I need to start paying back loans. I’ll get behind on those, and then my credit will be garbage. I won’t be able to get a credit card or buy a house or rent an apartment or buy a car. And then my parents will get sick of me and throw me out, and I’ll freeze to death living out of a cardboard box!

(If you couldn’t tell, catastrophizing is something I struggle with.)

I don’t talk much about my writing life, but one way of reaching your goals is to have many accountability partners. I’ve been drafting a novel, with varying levels of seriousness about finishing and trying to publish it, since summer 2017. This past New Year’s, I drew a line in the sand: by my birthday, September 7 of 2022, the story would be finished. Publishing is a different matter, but I want to ring in my 23rd birthday by having a completed manuscript. The last two weeks or so have been a lot of imposter syndrome and not a whole lot of writing. It’s also been a lot of fantasizing, thinking of what I would want out of writing for a living.

The mobility that lifestyle affords. Being able to meet other authors, writers of my generation and writers I grew up reading. Getting to tour schools and meet kids who have enjoyed my work. Getting to speak at conferences. Being recognized when I walk into bookstores, or even better, happening on someone reading a book of mine and hearing them gush about it and then being able to make their day by telling them they’re talking to the author.

Now did you notice anything missing from my writer fantasies? Go back and read that last paragraph. Read it once. Read it twice. One more time.

Writing.

That’s what I’ve started using to jar myself out of my slump. When I’m focused on the aesthetic of being a writer rather than doing what makes me a writer by trade, writing regularly, my writing life shrivels and dies.

So many problems show up because people want to look like something rather than embodying that thing. Let’s go back to Dan Bilzerian.

Even after his scandals, Dan is still successful. A peek at his Instagram reveals the man is sitting on a comfy 32.7 million followers. But his image has been compromised. Why? Because the public now knows Dan’s concern lies with looking like a self-made millionaire playboy rather than being a self-made millionaire playboy.

What about dark academia? The trend has received criticism for glorifying the unhealthy aspects of academic life like caffeine dependency and poor sleep habits and demographical elitism in excluding academic work from nonwhite countries or media with diverse leads from the “canon” of dark academia. In other words, dark academia is more concerned with looking intellectual than being intellectual.

People have known for a long time that social media is about making your life look a certain way rather than presenting it as it is. You don’t need to look at celebrities like Dan Bilzerian to see examples of that. Think about the kinds of accounts Missy Chanpaibool parodies. How many times have you watched a couple post mushy tributes to each other, only to delete them all when the toxicity behind the happy façade reaches critical mass? Multi-level marketing schemes make their dollars off of making people look like self-made businesspeople, even if the nature of the scheme means only about 1% of investors will make money from it. Scandal after scandal has happened because a public figure or an institution has acted one way in public and another in private.

And speaking of institutions, governments pursue aesthetics all the time, often at the expense of the people they govern. Financial crises like the Great Depression and the 2008 recession happened after the US government let the banks (in the case of 2008) and the rich (in the case of the Great Depression) off their leashes, letting them foolishly overspend with margins or derivatives. The economy slowly rotted from the inside out while the US had the aesthetic of a strong economy. To get more recent, COVID-19 ravages the US because in the first months of the pandemic, the previous administration was more focused on looking like coronavirus was under control, by keeping the economy open, refusing to supply COVID tests to keep statistics low, etc. We’ve spent the last two years feeling the consequences of those decisions.

(Does anyone else suddenly feel like re-watching Avatar: The Last Airbender? Specifically the Ba Sing Se episodes? …I’m the only one? OK.)

Conclusion?

A few posts ago, I stole a quote from my friend Haley: “The grass isn’t greener on the other side, it’s green where you water it.” Aesthetics are like fake grass, put down to make something look better than it is and impossible to one-up. So don’t bother. Aspire for a better life while being happy with the life you have now, dear reader.

And if you know anyone who’s hiring, pass my name along, willya?