Finding the Sacred in #BlackLivesMatter

Author’s note: I started drafting this post in early August. I researched, wrote, cut, added right back. Then life got busy with school starting back and my own lack of interest, and this post almost went in the deleted bin.

Then Jacob Blake got shot, and I realized I had been lulled into passivity. So here I go.

If you’ve never met Ken Heffner, you’re missing out.

It’s not creepy to look up people you know on Google Images, right? …right?

In my sophomore year at Calvin, I worked with Ken in a position called a Cultural Discerner. Cultural Discerners worked in the dorms to foster conversations about how we as Christians engaged with pop culture. It was through my time as a Cultural Discerner that I was introduced to the concept today’s post is about, finding the sacred in the profane.

We’ll get back to that. Instead, let’s talk about the present. Specifically, three incidents that have started the biggest movement of the century.

On February 25 in Brunswick, Georgia, 25-year-old Ahmaud Arbery was accosted by a white father and son and one of their neighbors while he was out on a run. Arbery was pursued by the three men in two vehicles, cut off by the neighbor, and fatally shot by the son. Despite the neighbor catching the whole thing on video and none of them being law enforcement (therefore having no authority to use lethal force), it took almost three months for the three men to be arrested and charged.

#SayHisName

At midnight on March 13, 2020, three members of the Louisville, Kentucky, police department executed a no-knock search warrant on the apartment of 26-year-old medical technician Breonna Taylor and her boyfriend, Kenneth Walker. The warrant was for two men allegedly involved in drug dealing, neither of whom lived in Taylor and Walker’s apartment. The police broke into the apartment using a battering ram, waking the couple from sleep. Walker, a licensed gun carrier, retrieved his gun and fired a shot at the intruders and received almost two dozen rounds of return fire, which killed Taylor. Walker was initially charged with assault and attempted murder of an officer, but the charges were dropped. As of the publishing of this post (September 14), one officer has been fired, but none have been arrested or charged.

#arrestthecopswhokilledbreonnataylor

On May 25, George Floyd allegedly paid for a pack of cigarettes with a counterfeit $20 bill. The police were called on Floyd when he refused to return his purchase. After he was cuffed, Floyd was first sat in the back of a police cruiser, then pulled from the car by Officer Derek Chauvin. Four officers restrained Floyd while he was on the ground, one by sitting on Floyd’s chest, and Officer Chauvin by putting a knee on Floyd’s neck. Floyd was in this restraint for 8 minutes and 46 seconds, during which he said multiple times he couldn’t breathe (both because of his air being cut off and his recent recovery from COVID-19), cried for his mother, and finally lost consciousness and stopped breathing. Floyd was pronounced dead an hour later. All four of the officers who restrained Floyd were arrested, Chauvin’s trial for second-degree murder is currently pending, and the other three officers have been charged with aiding and abetting second-degree murder.

#justiceforgeorgefloyd

Everyone (and I do mean everyone–including the founders of Ben & Jerry’s, one of the head honchos of Reddit, Mitt Romney, witches and Batman) had something to say. The protests against police brutality and for systemic reform went international, making the Black Lives Matter cause one of the biggest in history.

Christian communities had a…shall we say, mixed reaction to the protests. On the one hand, Christian sects that had been neutral on the matter of racial equality were finally pushed off the fence; see: the notoriously-conservative Southern Baptist Conference’s change of heart and the United Church of Christ’s affirmation of the Black Lives Matter cause. On the other hand, the protests made bigoted Christians dig their heels in further. But keep in mind, there’s a good reason for the indecision on the topic of Black Lives Matter.

Christianity, especially in America, has a long history of being on the wrong side of racial issues. If we’re strictly talking American Christianity, we could talk about the use of Scripture to justify slavery; the many white supremacist organizations, past and present, who twist theology into evidence for racial purity and calls for violence; that the primary force that stood against Martin Luther King, Jr. and the civil rights movement were white Christians; or the continued support by white evangelicals for President Trump through his many racially-charged and discriminatory statements and policies. If we wanted to go international, we could talk about the long history of antisemitism in European Christianity, coming to a climax with the Third Reich cherry-picking Martin Luther’s writings to make a Christian justification for Nazism.

The end result? What to the rest of the world seems like a black and white issue is subsequently muddled by the church’s history of being complicit or actively engaged in racism.

Flipping the perspective, Christians have their own issues with BLM, as has been expressed both in discussions and to me personally. It’s an issue with a few key parts of Black Lives Matter’s mission statements:

We are guided by the fact that all Black lives matter, regardless of actual or perceived sexual identity, gender identity, gender expression, economic status, ability, disability, religious beliefs or disbeliefs, immigration status, or location.

We make space for transgender brothers and sisters to participate and lead.

We are self-reflexive and do the work required to dismantle cisgender privilege and uplift Black trans folk, especially Black trans women who continue to be disproportionately impacted by trans-antagonistic violence.

We disrupt the Western-prescribed nuclear family structure requirement by supporting each other as extended families and “villages” that collectively care for one another, especially our children, to the degree that mothers, parents, and children are comfortable.

We foster a queer‐affirming network. When we gather, we do so with the intention of freeing ourselves from the tight grip of heteronormative thinking, or rather, the belief that all in the world are heterosexual (unless s/he or they disclose otherwise).

–From the “What We Believe” page on the official Black Lives Matter website, all emphases mine

Now, it is here I have to narrow down my audience. I’m not talking to people who focus on the violence that’s broken out at BLM protests. I’m not talking to conservative Christians who prioritize the “conservative” over the “Christian”. I’m not talking to reactionary Christians. I’m not talking to Christians who reject anything liberal or left-leaning on impulse or are anti-“woke” or who reject BLM for its part in “cultural Marxism,” whatever that even means. I’m talking to Christians on the fence, Christians who believe marginalized people are being crushed under the boot of white supremacy but are still reluctant to embrace the Black Lives Matter cause.

During my time working with Ken Heffner, we read The Soul of Hip-Hop by black theologian Daniel White Hodge.

Give it a read. It’s good.

Throughout the book, Hodge examines rap music, in particular artists like Tupac, KRS-One and NWA, as well as protest music. From his analysis, Hodge pulls a theology of justice from the lyrics: lyrics that look to heaven and cries out to God that He would deliver the justice institutions refuse to. Along with his theological weaving, Hodge criticizes the church’s knee-jerk rebuffs of hip-hop and attempts to co-opt the sound of black music to provide a “Christian” (read: white) alternative for young people.

Above all, Hodge begs his readers to find the sacred in the profane. To refrain from the church’s recoiling at the drug references and tales of sex and violence and look deeper, to the stories of losing friends to gang violence, of being racially profiled by police, of fatherlessness due to mass incarceration, and of groaning under the weight of systemic racism. The music cries out to God for justice because earthly forces of justice have often been the primary tool of their oppression.

If you are reluctant to take up the Black Lives Matter cause, I encourage you to find the sacred in the profane. Look to the roots of Black Lives Matter, a movement created in response to the death of Trayvon Martin.

On February 26, 2012, one man, a man with no legal authority to use lethal force, took the law into his hands and sentenced Trayvon Martin to death for the heinous crimes of wearing a hoodie and buying a bag of candy. It was a story black people everywhere had heard a million times before, but this time it was different: the killer wasn’t a police officer. There was no brass shield for George Zimmerman to hide behind, so maybe, finally, someone would answer for spilling an innocent young black man’s blood. The judge’s reading of “not guilty” gave a message loud and clear: Black Lives Don’t Matter. It wasn’t the brass shield on the breast of your shirt that gave you the permission to be judge, jury and executioner for people of color, but the color of your skin.

We as Christians need to recognize that the Black Lives Matter movement exists largely because of a stinging failure on the church’s part. The days of Martin Luther King organizing marches from a sanctuary are gone. For decades after King’s death, black Christians have been crying and begging at the church’s door for help, any kind of help, only to be turned away with responses of “All lives matter!” “Oh, we don’t talk about that here.” “Racism is a heart issue. That’s between them and God.” After decades of the church whistling and twiddling its thumbs, the church has unintentionally broadcast a tragic message: if people of color want justice, don’t go to church.

But we can do better. We can tell our black brothers and sisters that Jesus weeps for the deaths of his sons and daughters and so do we. We can march. We can advocate. We can educate ourselves. We can start hard conversations, bringing God into what was previously a secular discussion. We can make real change in God’s name.

I encourage you, reader: look for the Christian motivations in Black Lives Matter’s secular language.

Find the sacred in the profane.


Thank you all for reading. I hope you were moved by today’s post. I want to keep making contributions to the conversations we as a nation are currently having. With that in mind, I formally introduce Today I Want to Talk About… (TIWTTA)

This is a new series on the blog, where I break down hot-button topics, sociological concepts, and anything else relevant that comes to mind. With this series, I want to do my research and give a good resource that cuts through all the hysteria and presents information without an agenda. At the end of each post, I’ll present resources for further reading.

The first TIWTTA‘s subject: privilege. Stay tuned!

Collapsing at the Finish Line

I’ve had several false starts to writing this post. Hopefully, this is the real start. Today’s blog involves cross-country and the year 2016. It’ll make sense in a few paragraphs.

On May 20, I finished my junior year at Calvin University. In the days leading up to my last final, I already knew how I’d finish. Whether I was finishing a paper or taking an actual test, I would turn it in by slamming a fist down on the Enter button and then cementing my need for a new laptop by slamming my head down on the keyboard. When the day came, I finished my final paper for my math class, turned it in, and went downstairs to play Call of Duty.

Anticlimactic, innit?

It’s been a tough year for us Calvin kids. Even before coronavirus came sweeping in like a swarm of locusts, the Calvin community dealt with the deaths of three students and one professor, as well as a rape on campus. Not to mention the class of 2020 getting the tease of a lifetime by the school year ending weeks before graduation. I wrote a reflection on my sophomore year around this same time last year, but last year was different. Last year was difficult for me. This year was difficult for everybody (and still is).

I’ve been thinking about why I feel the way I do. I was expecting to feel some huge weight lifted off my shoulders, and yet what’s my reaction to the ending of a school year? Turning in my last assignment and proceeding to get destroyed by drop-shotters. Even now, as I write this blog post, the feeling I have in the moments I feel anything could be called “ambivalent.”

Here’s the connection to 2016. You guys remember 2016, the supposed “worst year ever”? In particular, you remember the last election? By the first month, I was sick of the candidates. By the time of election day, I didn’t care who won, because there was going to be riots no matter who would be sworn in, and judging by the article I linked, I’m not alone with that sentiment. TV Tropes has a term for my feelings about the Clinton-Trump race: Darkness-Induced Audience Apathy.

Maybe Darkness-Induced Audience Apathy is how a lot of us are feeling.

What we are accomplishing right now–whether that be finishing a school year, doing the best for kids, or merely getting out of bed to fight another day–may seem like measly blows against the faceless hulking enemy that is the COVID-19 global pandemic.

Which is where my cross-country season comes in.

AKA the one part of my sophomore year I’ll talk about without a gun to my head.

One race was like every other race. I kept pace, ran three mile-long laps, and for the final stretch, put on a burst of speed, and crossed the finish line.

My legs then gave out, and I took one or two more steps before collapsing.

My mom, coach, and a few onlookers came to check on me. I got out of the way of incoming runners and recovered. To this day, I couldn’t tell you why.

But here’s my takeaway: collapsing at the finish line doesn’t change the fact that you crossed the finish line. An ungraceful finish is still a finish.

Another cross-country story: different race. I was nearing the end, approaching the bend where once I turned it I would break into a sprint. A competitor, a guy from another school, came behind me so we were neck and neck. “Let’s go,” he said, and he kept saying that as we turned the bend. “Let’s go. Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go! Let’s go!” We both broke into sprints and booked it for the finish line, the guy chanting the whole time. We crossed the finish line still neck and neck and congratulated one another.

Let this blog post be encouragement like Let’s Go Man. Press on, dear reader, and cross the finish line however you can. A happy Memorial Day to everyone and a congratulations to any graduates reading.

Look Upon My Works

I entered my friends Ben and Jelz’s room and swung the door shut behind me, my hood up and my head spinning.

My friend Josh looked away from Black Ops 4 for a second and said, “Noah, you look like the Punisher.”

“Josh, what’s the Breaking Bad episode where everything goes sideways for Walter? Was it ‘Ozymandias’?”

“Yeah, that sounds right.”

“Today is ‘Ozymandias’.”

I never got drunk in Spain, but I think I got a little drunk off the experience. That’s the only plausible explanation for why I thought taking 16 credits in the spring would be a good idea.

As for running for Student Senate during the sweatiest semester I’ve had at Calvin, I have no explanation.

People asked me why I was running for Senate during campaign week. My stock response was that I didn’t want to be an armchair critic, and if I had problems with Calvin (which I do) becoming a senator would be the most direct method of dealing with them. But that wasn’t the only reason.

Maybe it was because a few of my mentors had suggested the circle of friends that would come from a club or student org would be healthy. Maybe it was because a few of my friends were on Senate, and working with them sounded fun. Maybe it was because student government would be killer for my LinkedIn page. Maybe having something as time-consuming as being a senator would be the kick in the pants I needed to get my life in order. Maybe it was a little of all those things. Whatever it was, I ran.

If you couldn’t tell by now, I didn’t make it.

I think I went through a couple of stages following the announcement of the election results.

Stage 1: Acceptance. The person with the most votes didn’t surprise me; she was an RA and an international relations major, so she had an entire dorm behind her along with a major that by its nature gave her political acumen.

Stage 2: Indignation. That came from the second winner and first runner-up. Two people made it to senate through the initial election; the second winner was knocked out with an ear infection for most of the campaign week. The person who came in third was a surprise; I didn’t even know she was running until the night before results were announced. After some snooping, I found out why: because she hadn’t campaigned. Which is where the indignation came in: Are you telling me I lost to someone who couldn’t campaign and someone who didn’t campaign? How little trust do people have in me?!

Granted, there were other people who had beat me–I came in sixth–but those two results really got under my skin.

Stage 3: Discouragement. I was not in Stage 3 when I burst into Ben and Jelz’s room asking about Breaking Bad episodes. That came the week after.

I’m confessing to the world: I almost had a date.

I asked one of my friends if she wanted to get Bob Evans on a Monday where we didn’t have class. And she agreed.

Then things came up over the weekend, and she decided to call it off, and told me she didn’t feel the same way.

Which is where I ended up: sitting off in a corner, seriously considering whether I was going to fail two of my classes, not a senator, and trying to figure out what the phrasing for getting rejected after a yes is. (Conclusion: asking out=shooting your shot, rejection=missing, my situation=ricochet…or something.)

Which leads into Stage 4.

Stage 4: Introspection. After the emo stuff had gone on for long enough, I started thinking.

I’ve taken some serious L’s this year. What I’ve mentioned is an incomplete list, but they’re the big things. As I thought through it, I started to see something resembling the bright side. I was on the come up in my struggle classes (or at least, it felt like it), so those weren’t as much of concerns as they had been a few weeks before. Being on next year’s Senate might be a bust, but I got my name out there. I took a risk, something I feel I don’t do often enough, and got good information that could be used for a future shot at Senate. I got 445 votes, and proof of something I sometimes have a hard time believing: that there are people in my corner.

As for getting shot down? Rejection SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS (did I mention it sucks?), but as punches to the soul go, this was more of an angry toddler punch than a prizefighter punch. This friend, who I’m purposely leaving unnamed, named not leading me on as her reason for calling it off, so yay to not getting strung along. And she set the tone: things are only as awkward as you make them, and there’s been a minimum of awkwardness between the two of us.

Stage 5: Turning the Phrase I’d Been Muttering to Myself on Its Head. Which brings me back to Ben and Jelz’s room, asking about the titles of Breaking Bad episodes.

The episode title comes from “Ozymandias”, a poem by Percy Bysshe Shelley. The narrator meets a man who stumbled on the ruins of a kingdom while wandering through the desert. On the pedestal of a statue of the king are these words:

`My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings:
Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair!’

I found myself muttering those words to myself a lot as the school year wound to a close.

I look upon my works.

But I don’t think I’m going to despair.